I can be sleeping and tell you I'm too busy for anything. How I got here is what I can't explain and this habit has made me give little time to things that matter or could have matter in my life. There are three things I wish I gave enough time to;

Reading of books,learning programming,and learning of instruments.

I came across these opportunities at a point in my life and still do but I've prioritized the desire to make wealth, so whenever I give time to anything, I feel I'm losing money somewhere, so I refrain from them and settle for making wealth. Sometimes I don't blame my pattern of thoughts. I have loads of responsibility on me that I feel days when I could have learned have gone. I know that's not absolutely true, but the circumstances around me had reframed my narrative. My favorite quote while I was a leader in school was "readers are leaders". But it's unfortunate that I don't read. I knew what to do, but I'll only gear people to do it while myself would be found wanting. Fortunately I'm a fast reader but I've not been able to utilize that skill properly in reading books that could empower me for growth and probably change my mindset about life. I've read a few books but it's often a book after a long period of time. I wish I would give it enough time to read, this could change me wholly but I often give in little or no time to it. ![](https://images.ecency.com/DQmS4q8K8GRUZc6hCBke7VdkPjL8xfsEjFPJ8MjkE3qwoUZ/deadline_2636259_1280.jpg) [photo Source](https://pixabay.com/illustrations/deadline-stopwatch-clock-time-2636259/) I later developed an interest in learning drums. I started the lesson but did not finish. I attended the class three times and soon found reasons to believe I was too busy. I've bumped into people on several occasions who wanted to teach me how to play drums but again I could only wish I gave in more time to it. I always felt I had no time, like my time was preoccupied with things which were not actually feasible. I've not been able to learn the drums because I've not given much time to it. Drumming skill is something I need to help my church grow but I've failed in dedicating more time to learn these skills. Finally, learning programming. I love computers and anything that involves the internet. I wanted to take this interest to a different level by learning programming but here am I with just the basic knowledge because I didn't give my time to learn it. I felt I've gotten the opportunity to learn programming during my NYSC when I met a friend who was a programmer. He was happy to teach me and wanted to do it for free but I insisted I would pay him, hoping it would motivate me to learn. I did pay him but attended the class just twice and I requested to snap the pages of the book from which he taught me. I told myself I was going to learn from the PDF file I made from the photos and even bought a laptop hoping to learn. But I could only wish I had enough time to learn it, actually there's always enough time but my mind tells me there's not. These are things I wish I could free my mind to allow myself to have enough time to learn them.

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