If I think about my past, from my adolescence to now, I have always suffered from little or great moments of anxiety.
The anxiety, for the Oxford Dictionary, is:
the state of feeling nervous or worried that something bad is going to happen
a worry or fear about something
a strong feeling of wanting to do something or of wanting something to happen
When I was 10-15 years I used a series of "rituals" to control my anxieties, for example I switched on and off the light in my bedroom three times before to sleep, I checked under the bed and then wandering around, I rolled the corner of my pillow between my fingers until the fabric was broken.
As an adult, studying clinical psychology at the University and working in the fields of health care for drug addictioner and/or mental disorders, I started to "work" on myself thanks to the help of some collegues (more of my ex collegues are psychoterapists ^_^)
Against my anxiety I found comfort walking, drinking hot milk with a bit of cinnamom, more chamomils, meeting friends to laugh, joke and think positive. In some very difficult moments, when I couldn't see other solution in any way, I used chemistry (anxiolytics), always being careful that they were only isolated episodes.
In the Art I found the best way to contrast my "bad" moments, I fill my dark "area" with many colors and many funny freaky subjects and I think it's beautiful and usefull at the same time!
Yes, life it's not always full of roses and flowers, sometimes we met some thorns, but our fragilities are parts of ourselves and we have to learn to live with these. ^_^
See ya soon
Silvia
