Small-talk?!? That is one of my negative triggers! I don't understand how it works. Maybe that isn't it. I don't understand what to ask. Maybe that isn't it. Maybe I'm tired of asking these types of questions because then I get asked them. Maybe I'll letting fear and anxiety take control of my mind?
I find that I don't remember my childhood as it is. So, avoiding that is pretty easy, but does it make me look/sound strange to people?
I haven't ever held a high opinion of myself. I've taken the depressed road, not the look-at-what-I-can-and-do-accomplish road. I want to be seen but not been seen. For when I'm seen, I shame myself for putting myself out there. But, I want to be successful. Oh, shit. Define success.
Yes, this place has been helping to unload some of that trauma stuff in a more healthy and constructive way by writing stories. That is not something I've practiced in the past. What I've done is unload and vent onto people or at them, depending on the mood I'm in. lol ... kind of funny ... kind of sad.
When you are getting to know someone, what kind of small-talk do you make? Maybe we can practice here for a spell. Of course, this puts me in danger of making more acquaintances, which might eventually turn into a friendship. ...
