Well my time is almost finished here at the clinic, Im pretty angry about something. As it turns out when your time is nearly up they like to pressure into staying longer here. I had observed this before with some other patients and was half expecting it but didnt think that they would take it this far. I dont like being treated like a cashcow, my father paid for my months treatment here and they insisted that I need more time here. The owner and Psychiatrist had not shown any interest in me until a couple days ago and has been making me feel insecure about myself now that Im almost ready to leave here and face the real world.
Realistically I could do with a few more extra days but I need to face the reality of things and move on with my life.
Apart from this BS Im feeling a little bit uneasy about leaving this hideaway but I know what steps I need to take to improve my self esteem and move with things. Its easier said than done to look forward and not look back, my mind is focused on the right path but my heart is still quite broken and likely will be for a long period of time. To loose somebody close because of death seems easier to accept than to loose somebody in life at the moment.
