My ongoing struggle with depression and trying to dealing with all that has happened in the last weeks is something that has to come to a halt. I need to feel good about myself again and not just for a few minutes at a time.
I need to start completing some of my short term goals that I made for myself and stop feeling sorry for myself.
Look forward and stop looking back, the only thing that I can change is the future not the past.
Need to meet new people and start to be more social again, I have always been very open with those around me and currently find myself spending far too much time alone wandering around the streets thinking negatively.
Starting work soon will help me to feel better, Im very good at my job and having people around me all day will improve my self esteem and help to keep my mind from all the negative thoughts that are flooding my exhausted mind.
I need to be strong for myself and for my children, as much as I try and avoid it, When I spend time with them I find myself being withdrawn at times and I dont want them to suffer the consequences of this terrible divorce anymore than they already are.
Hopefully this post doesnt sound to silly, but writing I think will help again like it did during my my stay in the clinic.
Hope you have a great day, Im going to ride along with a colleague on one of the tour buses today to Pama de Mallorca. I hope to take some nice pictures and share later in a post.
