I am not the kind of person who runs around frantically constantly wanting to please absolutely everyone I come across. don't get me wrong, I really appreciate if my life can convey any happiness or bliss into anyone else lives that I come in contact with, that is something that pleases me, and if there is a load i can lighten a burden I can share or a day I can brighten, I will. But I am not one of those people who goes about their day with that being their main focus with the hope of being rewarded with the gratitude of such recognition.
There are though a handful of very special people in my life that I firmly believes deserves to be happy, and those people are the people that i would love to be pleased with me. And somehow I manage to contour up exactly the opposite effect. Either trying to hard or not putting in enough effort I always seem to get it wrong and disappoint the ones I care for most. Not quite sure how I manage, it seems to be an un-calculated formula in a algo-rhythm that I have mastered.
I would love to find a point of relief!
Pleasing everyone is impossible, and in my case pleasing even a selected few is proving even harder, it must be directly related to my ability of being able to piss everyone off in record time.