This is a bluesy tune with a little country in it, and it is a lot of fun to sing. The idea came up in a chat with @yidneth on my last open mic post, Time to Fade, and I went and wrote a song that was sparked from that comment thread.
Thanks for the inspiration, Pris!
I put on my sexy-new-rock-n-roll shirt and some shades for this one. Fun, fun, fun!
Thick Walled Tender Heart
This thick-walled tender heart’s got too many cracks
I try to cage my love but it comes rushing back
Through slices of canyons, ravines in my chest
It lights me on fire from my feet to my breasts
And baby the way this rolls through me I know you understand
But to let my walls down all the way I just don’t think I can
‘Cause I’ve got all the trust issues,
Want me count ‘em off?
I’ve got self-doubt in spades
And a mind that won’t stop
I’ve got emotions that surf every monster swell
I try to stay calm—sometimes I do it well
But when I fall apart holy fuck what a ride
Let me patch up this wall, keep that shit inside
This thick-walled tender heart’s got too many cracks
Put some holes in the walls myself tryin’ to get back
To a place where I can trust myself and more
Sometimes I fly in the sky, sometimes I’m on the floor
But the lightning that crashes from my heart through my veins
Makes me wanna blast the walls down just to hear you say my name
But then I’d have no shield, probly go up in flames
And I’m afraid…
‘Cause I’ve got all the trust issues,
Want me count ‘em off?
I’ve got self-doubt in spades
And a mind that won’t stop
I’ve got emotions that surf every monster swell
I try to stay calm—sometimes I do it well
But when I fall apart holy fuck what a ride
Let me patch up this wall, keep that shit inside
This thick-walled tender heart’s got too many cracks
I try to cage my love but it comes rushing back
Through slices of canyons, ravines in my chest
It lights me on fire from my feet to my breasts
This thick-walled tender heart’s got too many cracks
Original songwriting by Katrina Ariel.
Heres the original chat that sparked this song:
Sometimes it’s hard to navigate life feeling alive. It can get so intense you just want to tone down the feelings sometimes… find some escape.
A lot of us have built walls up around our hearts to protect from the scary world, and especially from intimacy. But a hardened heart hides life within, love and wildness and joy and creativity that wants to get out.
And all the other stuff. Oh yeah, all that other stuff.
When you open the walls to let the good stuff flow, the other stuff comes up for love too. Acknowledgement. All that baggage just wants to be understood, right? The scary stuff comes roaring, but it’s just this part of the soul that wants someone to say, yeah that happened, but you’re okay. Just as you are. Stop worrying about it.
ahem
Don’t mind me while I do some self-counseling freeform in my post, eh? Just an artist’s wacky mind at work, here for the world to see. That’s scary, though. So I got some shades to wear under my hat, so I can have the illusion of hiding while I sing.
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sigh
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I hope you enjoyed the song. Maybe you got a laugh out of my stream of consciousness. Maybe you can relate a little.
Thanks so much for listening!
Whatever happens, keep singing your song!
Peace. @katrina-ariel
Photos mine unless otherwise credited.
Author bio: Katrina Ariel is an old-soul rebel, musician, tree-hugging yogini, and mama bear to twins. Author of Yoga for Dragon Riders (non-fiction) and Wild Horse Heart (romance), she's another free-spirit swimming in the ocean of Steem.
dragon art: Liiga Smilshkalne
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