All I can feel now is fear. I have nothing to help me and I do not know what to do.
I could not pay my rent here in Bangkok Thailand. I have had four of my sources of money dry up in the last months as well as steemit money slowing way down.
I thought my deposit would cover what I have due here, but I was wrong. Yesterday they told me there was more money owing - approximately 2000 thb.
So last night I did everything I could to get that cash into my Thai bank account, and I succeeded. I stayed up all night and pulled the small amounts out from everywhere I have money left. I had to close some accounts and figure out how to get the money here and struggled all night and posted to steemit in between banking transactions. I looked at their numbers and thought I only owed 1700 but I had the 2000 anyway.
Today, I went downstairs to show them how I figured out what to pay and they said it was 6000 thb instead and locked me out of the room while I was talking to them. No one speaks good English so lots of miscommunication went on for hours.
I was in my nightgown with nothing but the paper I had figured out the money on. I did not even have shoes on and they told me to just leave and get the money somehow.
Was I supposed to go beg on the street?
I had to fight for 4 hours just to get back in the room. I did not have my ATM card or anything else to even give them the 2000. For much of the time, they wanted my passport and computer "for collateral." I refused at least 100 times.
Finally they accepted the 2000 thb and said I can stay until Monday July 23. But at that time they want another 4000 thb and I will not have it.
I was planning to leave on August 1 when my Visa expires, and I am not at all ready to leave now. I was planning to leave most of what I have here with my Thai friends. I was going to give them many household goods, and have them hold 2 suitcases of my possessions. But now I cannot remove anything from the room.
Since I got back in here, the wifi has been out and just came on now, so this is a completely wasted day.
Now I have to leave in two days and for some reason my phone will not work, so I cannot even buy the ticket for the train to Malaysia. Almost all seats are sold since this is only in two days from now. I can get to the point of paying, but then I cannot pay The ATM card I have needs phone service to be approved.
Do I just go to the train station on Monday and sit waiting for an empty seat to appear?
Will the hotel let me leave if I do not pay 4000 thb more?
I tried to sleep, but I cannot. I only got a couple of hours sleep in the last 48, and I cannot think. My Thai friends want me to come for dinner now and I am afraid to go in case I come back to the door locked again late at night.
I am just going to try to pack what I think I can carry and do some laundry. Maybe some action in any direction will help me focus and progress.
None of this has anything to do with the rent I cannot pay in San Diego for my son @bxlphabet. I have not heard from him and I am worried sick about that in the small part of my head that is not panicking for my own situation.
I'm using the ulog tag for this post. My last ulog Number 10 was called, "Don't Make Excuses Have Courage." I need to continue on the path.
I use this photo to show people what the pain of rheumatoid arthritis feels like. Today it is the state of my brain.
And here are some cows from beautiful Malaysia. Why do I think I will be able to do better there?
I am blogging about weight loss to help others get thin and healthy like I did. If you or anyone you know is struggling to beat obesity, please follow along and you can do this too.
Let's Pretend to Lose Weight - Deciding to track your weight and face reality
Yes, You CAN Lose Weight! - Finding out your BMI and getting over excuses
Weight Loss - Let’s Get Started Today - First steps to successful weight loss
Portion Sizes and Nutrition How big is a portion of food?
Weight Loss Bad Ideas Don't try these!
Easy Exercise - Stretching and Walking If you are fitness walking, stretching before and after will help you in many ways.
Help Us Stay on Steemit
If you would like to help my son @bxlphabet and I stay on steemit, but your upvote is just not enough, here are my wallet and PayPal addresses where I will be so grateful for any help. Any input or ideas will be so welcome.
BitcoinCash - BCH
1Bmcyk8Fk9micU3RWjWu3H1P2fvHyj71d6
Bitcoin - BTC
362ncqbi6qJn1daB8mrRrjYYWJ2HwpvcPZ
Dash - DAS
Xs7xdJHeRHRqdwF8RQuo6tPHUdXPm7viZp
Litecoin - LTC
Lhuh274DFkS6CNq4SJjhNem242QYwcTu59
Byteball
6IMJINL2UG3XPT2WJDUGNGBDC4HUCOXL
PayPal Thailand:
PayPal US:
This post was made from https://ulogs.org