A Conversation About Women: Constrained Writing Contest #30

"What is it that you think that I may help you with today?"

"Can we, I mean, do you mind if we speak about women?"

"No. Where would you like to start?"

"I'd like to know why it is that every woman I've ever have been attracted to either has a boyfriend, a husband, or likes their own kind without exception."

"This is a tough one."

"Yes, it is. It aggravates me. Why can I not find a single single woman to whom I am attracted to and who is attracted to me? I feel so ... worthless."

"Have you had much of a dating life?"

"No. The only girl I have considered a girlfriend lasted a year and that came along when I was around the age of twenty-six. Other than that, it has been several one night stands scattered here and there over the years."

"What was it like living at home? Did you see what a working relationship looked like?"

"Are you kidding? Living at home with my mother was a nightmare of which I've largely blocked out of my memory. That should give you a good indication of what home life was like growing up around a female addicted to pain meds and psychotropic drugs, handed out by big pharma to "heal" people, a.k.a. keep you sick and never address the root of the problem.

She had may men. I lost count after five. When you're a young child, you don't understand why every three to four months you're calling this new man-boy daddy."

"Oh, yes. Trauma has a way of playing itself out."

"Trauma? What trauma? I'm perfectly healthy."

"Who are you attempting to fool?"

"Just seeing if I can get one over on you, Doc. Yep, that trauma stuff... You know we moved a lot."

"What was the point of that?"

"I don't really know. I do know that she couldn't hold down a job for more than a couple of months. We were in and out of a place, either a house, apartment, and/or town, just as fast as rabbits multiply. You know she had us living on a farm with this married couple. She later claimed that she was raped or sexually molested by him. Plausible and probable. I do question if she brought it on herself?"

"We may do things that will reinforce the way that we feel and think about ourselves. We will create those same situations over and over again until we are ready to learn from the experience. The person may never get to the point of where they will have well defined and clear boundaries. What can you tell me about your mother's boundaries?"

"I have to ask the question, 'Does she have any?' Hmm ... Why do we have to speak about her? I want to get back to why is it I can't seem to get laid by the girls I'm attracted to."

"Is all you want from a woman is to get laid."

"I've had a few who have accused me of wanting such. I do highly enjoy the sexual energy exchange that happens. None that I recall have cared to understand this part. They think they are just some masturbation toy. All being fair, I probably treat them like that. It is the way I was taught after all. The man-boys rubbed off on me."