ImgI woke up today feeling good and not even hungry. From now on though the dogs walks must be shortend as I can feel the body isn't enjoying to move. I just went and layed in the bath for a while and when I got out I managed to faint somewhat but not black out for a long time luckily. I actually just lifted a foot to scratch it and then felt my head hit the toilet seat or the floor, not really sure what one it was first, I thought it was the floor and checked my forehead for blood and was happy the was none, but the realized I had smashed the bridge of my nose and an old scar from when I got head butted had started bleeding again.
So from now on I must stand up very slowly and be very careful with how I move. Because I didn't start this fasting straight away from a regular diet as I wasn't eating so much anyway over the last months and had lost already over 4kg from my minimum body mass, I think I'm more in the fasting stages than I should be after just 48hours and so to actually do a full 7 days fasting after already turning so dam skinny could be a mistake. I knew today that I must rest a lot, and also tomorrow and so on until I feel ok but after getting out the bath I realize that this is now paramount to just rest.
Ill now lay down, and binge out on netflix, or even better try get the password for HBO from my mate and get watching the rest of vikings series.
I'm aiming for a water only fast with lemon, but have been drinking citrus white tea also because I'm a pussy. The Water in any city tastes like crap compared to water from nature and here I can taste the chlorine so the first thing when I go the was to fill up many glasses and cups with water to let the chlorine evaporate (which it does completely in under 20 hours in a warm room) so I have at least non chlorinated water to drink.
So how am I feeling, any changes?
Earlier today and even now, I feel very light and I can feel my body more without touching it (if that makes sense). My head feels very clear and calm and although I didn't meditate since many days, I feel that same bliss as if I had been.
Not many thoughts of food, only earlier when I was walking the dogs past a pizza restaurant (stomach rumbles just now from the memory!) and got a good long wiff of pizza cooking. I found my first free thing in the trash in Poland whilst looking for something to use to clean a dog poo up.. and guess what it was?! ( I love how the universe works..)
One of my goals is to also stop smoking tobacco, and actually since Ive been in the appartment which is now 42 hours, I have smoke 5 rollie sized joints which is nothing to what I would normally smoke.
In part one of this Fasting Blog thingy I proposed that for me personally, smoking is strongly related to food and this so far I believe is correct. When you smoked some kinds of ganja (and yes there are 1000's of different types), some can make you hungry so you eat something, usually a snack- and then after eating its really nice to smoke (so the mind says- and there must be something that smoking does to the digestive workings because it feels somehow natural to do so.)
You see the cycle here? Get the munchies after a smoke, eat something, then smoke after eating, then get munchies again.. and so the cycle goes on. Luckily I quit sugar and so the things I would eat as snacks were always not sweet things all the time, but sure they still consisted of added sugar, even standard white bread contains 10% sugar, did you know that?!
My muscles are disappearing since a while I noticed as I wasn't eating so much in general and now they start to feel weird
When I was in the bath I realized that people who want to "find theirselves" should just do a fast - You don't need to go anywhere to experience yourselfand for sure people that really want an "experience" should most definitely try out fasting, or even better said, dont try it DO IT and get past that initial feeling of hunger stage. It feels like meditating but without meditation, and its strange but I cant even explain at the moment of how it feels apart from relating it to the bliss of regular meditation, but in the body instead of in the mind. You really get to feel your body and think of nothing else.
Earlier and times like now, I'm wondering actually if I will be able to go and get things to eat after few days from now.
Will I be feeling good with energy or will I feel faint and weak? I'll see how it goes, but I've come this far and so I will do at least another 48 hours making four whole days of no food (I did eat 3 handfuls of dry cornflakes last night but plan not to do that again!) I read that after 7 days of fasting any healing that the body receives is multiplied in effect and had thought on the 7th day, to go slash some cash on a very long massage and then after this to start making smoothies from organic veggys and fruits.
I will post again tomorrow and would also love to hear form others who have done this already. Even just from over 24 hours, I realize that I will be doing this much more often in the future.
Big Love & Abundance,
@movingman