When I was sick for a few days, it gave me the needed rest to have a good little think about life and whatnot.
But also to re-assess, what I am actually doing on this wonderful new technology and my angle on where my focus is on the steem blockchain.
And it's been a-lingering in my mind.
What value am I bringing to the blockchain?
Am I actually bringing value at all?
Is my incessant heart-splatterings of words and emotions benefiting anyone here?
Am I REALLY bringing something that is of importance to the Steemit table?
Of course, opinions will differ on this.
Some may think I do.
Some may think I don't.
And that's all alright.
It's not about what other people think.
It's about what I think.
I am the one who has to live with myself and everything I put out on here.
I've also been asking a few of my friends (hello @overkillcoin) about this.
And thankfully, they believe that I am bringing value to this place.
Which does make give me an extra boost.
But WHAT am I doing on here?
What is my purpose?
Intense and heavy ideas to have when you've just been sick and are still recuperating but hey, life doesn't wait!
I mean I am no artist
neither am I an absolutely wonderful writer who can write really indepth posts about certain topics
nor am I someone who can write deep poetry.
And it just hit me.
I am good at being me!
Or as @caitlinjohnstone posted on Twitter the other day
Nobody can do what I do better than I can.
I am the Michael Jordan of being Ashley Kalila.
FUCK A DOODLE DOO! YES!!
Thanks Caitlin for the big ass reminder! You are SO damn right.
Nobody can do Ashley Kalila as good as I can.
I am the BEST at being myself.
And that is COMPLETELY what I have to bring to the blockchain.
Or to any enterprise, platform or the next thingymajig.
I have such a shitload to bring to the table AS MYSELF.
And not to toot my own horn but ya know, I gotta make a lil list of the why's and how's of who I am.
sometimes it's very good to write down what you do well and what makes you happy. Ya know, as a lil reminder
- A great connector!
- A deep genuine interest in people
- Mega (harshly) honest and direct
- Eye for good shit
- Writing from intuition
- The ability to flow like water
- Unashamably me (however ugly and dark it sometimes gets)
- Expressive as hell
- Enjoy the small things
- Intensely loving (especially towards myself)
Now you may be think
What the hell? Why is this chick listing down all the things she likes about herself? How selfish of her!
And I say to you
No. I need this. As a reminder of why I am here and what I can bring. And there is no shame in knowing your strengths and qualities. It is actually very powerful to know where your talent and ethics lie
These are the things that I am.
I am sure there are more but I cannot think of them atm.
Another reminder of this piece of the puzzle came from @natureofbeing (who just did a @humansofsteemit interview) when I read her answer below :
I bow deeply to my teaching today that was brought through @natureofbeing's words.
Thank you dearest for opening my eyes to something I was forgetting to acknowledge within myself.
We need others to grow, to evolve and to make something greater than ever.
And I am good at being part of that process.
Either as a catalyst, as a firestarter and/or as a teamplayer.
And this whole post serves as one fat ass reminder to remember my gifts and how to use them.
Which is pretty simple really.
I am just organically being myself.
And that's where the key lies.
Doing the things that come naturally and finding (and creating!) the opportunities to use those talents.
And to build from there and to create a system that works for myself and not to push myself to do things that I find 'hard' or unenjoyable to do.
After all, we only live once right?
So now my question to you is :
What value are you bringing to the Steemiverse?
How are you serving yourself and others?
Where do your intentions lie?
I want to read your truth.
I want to see your soul.
I want to see who you are.
I plan on heavily upvoting the comments to this post because why not? Let's drain my SP!
BIG love,
Ashley
My LoveProject is @humansofsteemit! Featuring the humans behind the Steemit usernames!