I don't even know what I want to say in this post or how it will turn out but let's see...
I am someone who gets stuck in life quite often and even though it gets annoying and I'm trying to figure it out before it happens, I still don't know how to get my sh*t together. I think that, for some reason, it happens to me during this time of the year. I don't know if the season changing has something to do with it, or the stress that comes with my unsolved University stuff or the fact that my birthday is getting closer (you know that "one year older" feeling) and New Year's is just around the corner so you start questioning what you've achieved so far...
Now, as I am writing this and thinking about my situation, I think I gave some answers to myself that have been bothering me these days. This is why I love writing, you figure out things as you let them out and you get a better perspective of your situation. I am also a big procrastinator and I always say "I'll start tomorrow" and that tomorrow never comes.
I just want to point out that I am not sad, depressed or anything along those lines. I do feel overwhelmed, stressed out and anxious but I'm trying to keep a positive attitude and look at the bright side. I know that this won't solve my problems but at least it makes it a little bit easier to deal with everything.
When it comes to Steemit, I'm not sure in which direction I want my blog to go. I feel like I need more structure and I want to do something more meaningful on this platform. I also don't know if I want to post on daily basis or maybe few times a week. I'm not sure if I want to get into video making more or writing posts. After 20 months, I feel like I should bring more value to this platform and the community, I'm just not sure how to do that. I have a few ideas on my mind but I need to dig into the details, plan everything and find the best way to present it to Steemit.
I guess that's all for this random post, I'm always debating if I should publish posts like this, but yeah, this is life - sometimes we get stuck into that "meh" phase, when you don't feel great but you don't feel bad, you just feel "meh". :D
Like I said, I'm trying to keep the positive attitude, stay grateful, lift myself up, tell myself that everything will work out just fine and everything is going to be okay.
I'm sending much love to you all, especially to those of you who might be feeling similar, just know that you're not in this alone! <3
Photo is mine, taken with iPhone 5 almost one month ago. I was trying to take some photos of the sunset and this one turned out blurry but for some reason I didn't want to delete it, I thought it was kind of cool this way and now it feels like it's a perfect fit for this post as the vision of my life is blurry at the moment, lol. (I also wear glasses so my actual vision is blurry without them, I don't know why I'm sharing this right now, but oh well...)
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