We went to a place with years of tradition behind it. I didn't care. I wanted to be out of the canyon as soon as possible. Who knows what would happen if the walls suddenly decided, all on their own, to crash down and lock me in with the people I was with?

I know what would happen. We would all starve if we listened to Joe. We would all go thirsty is we listened to Mary. We wouldn't find our way out if we listened to Blister, who got the nickname Blister because he thought he could ignore the pain fire caused and come away unscathed.

I do care about the Native Americans. Most people still call them Indians. Don't those fuckers know that Columbus started calling them Indians because he thought he had reached India? He also mass murdered all the "free" laborers he acquired.

Some might try to defend that mass murderer and claim he did all of the horrible things he did because "he never got the chance to change." Fuck you. He had many chances to change. He didn't want to look at himself, nor the surrounding environment to see the death and destruction he had caused the people he enslaved.

Ya... So back to this damn canyon. Why did I decided to go with these people you ask. Fuck if I know. I was bored. I was craving some adventure. I wanted to get to know people. I wanted to see the country. I'm so sick of myself. I need a change. Some say it is right before me. Maybe I am just as sick as Columbus was. No one can heal what they can't see with either the five senses nor the other senses we possess.

Who would have thought life could be so draining and boring? Something is wrong with me. Why am I feeling suicidal all the time? Maybe it is the people I am around. What is going on inside of their brains that is making me feel this way?

They say, "Live! Life is beautiful!" What the hell for? I'm feeling so fucking lost. Maybe staying in the canyon would be a great way to leave this earth. I could let the critters snack on my dead body until they get their fill before having to find some other sucker to eat.

What the hell am I living for? I've been uninterested in learning for the past year or so. It is so dark. Emotions are swinging from one extreme to the other. Can I get off? Where is the button to end this ride? Can't we all just get along? Get me out of this canyon! I'm feeling claustrophobic. Oh, fuck it. Take me.

Eat my companions first just so I can make the choice as to whether I want to live or die. If I need to go on living, their bodies will sustain my life until I can get to safety. Maybe I'm losing my mind. Is it the California heat wave causing me to have these thoughts?

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My Completed Freewriting prompts:

1. Dude
2. Bittersweet
3. Basket
4. Housecoat
5. Nail
6. Faster Than Light
7. Cane (Bonus: Red Wine)
8. A Ridiculous Amount of Fun
9. Mosquito
10. Bamboo
11. Hook
12. Sweater
13. The Entryway
14. Trolley
15. Flea
16. Awakening
17. Her Homemade Jams
18. Party
19. Important
20. Parasol
21. Back Pain
22. Late
23. Medium
24. Mother
25. Banana
26. Paper
27. Milk
28. Tree
29. Swing
30. Bored Stiff
31. 5
32. Home Alone and Doctor’s Office
33. Monkey’s Wedding
34. Wire
35. Appetite
36. Travel
37. A Kiss
38. Mice
39. Detective
40. Homeless
41. Eyebrows
42. 40 Percent Off
43. One Year
44. Frosting a Cake
45. Bones
46. Clouds
47. Scratch
48. Wet
49. Cherry
50. Depression
51. Camping
52. Caterpillar
53. Quadrillion
54. Describe the Room You Are In
55. Dew
56. Miami
57. Skinny
58. Lizard Cave
59. Mold
60. Herbs
61. Phone
62. Wood
63. Prototype
64. Discord
65. A Jumble of Words
66. Suffers in Silence
67. Bath
68. Core Values
69. Players
70. Talking Dog
71. Grand Piano
72. Syrup
73. Ornate
74. Chips
75. State
76. Epilogue
77. Sell-out
78. Chalk
79. Spa

Weekend Free Write:

1. The Picture

2. The Crooked Umbrella

3. The Chair That I’m Strapped To

4. The Stall - Part 1)

5. The Stall - Part 2

6. A Common Ending

7. The Stall – Part 9

8. Withdrawal

9. Richard’s Surprise

10. The Trap

11. Church

12. [Canyon Making You Crazy?](