I still remember the day
When mom called to say,
"He is gone."

I felt the energy come up.
It was a mixture of different ones.
Grief, anger, sadness.

I punched the refrigerator door
Leaving a knuckle mark.
I put the rest of my emotions on my shoulders.

I wasn't able to say goodbye.
Your father didn't let us know
Before you were taken off life support.

He had made his decision.
He is a coward in my opinion.
Unresolved trauma playing itself out.

I never would have guessed
That'd you'd die by a freak accident.
Come speak to me in my dreams.

I wonder what would have become of us.
Would we be close brothers?
Would you call me when times got tough?

I miss you, bro.
We never did get to spend a lot of time together
When we were growing up.

Thanks for the time we did share.
I hope you know I care.
One day, I'll let this grief of mine go.

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Ongoing Contests

@mctiller twenty-four hour short story - You gotta be quick to get this one posted in time. He posts the contest on Sunday (usually) and ends it about 48 hours later. This contest has a 2000 word limit.
@bananafish Finish the Story Contest - The contest begins on Wednesday (usually) and end 5 days later. This contest will test your write skills with something a little different each week. Pletty of time to write something around the 500 word mark.
@kristyglas Random Games - Yes, random. She will put this contest out on Thursdays (usually) and end it after post pay out (usually). This is challenging because you don't know what you are going to get.
@steemmonsters Steem Monsters Common Card Fantasy Story Contest! - Coming out roughly every week. If you enjoy card games like Magic, Yugio, and others like it, you might like this game. Write a fictional tale about the card they present in the contest and your entry just might be the one they choose to showcase.
@calluna Tell A Story To Me, And Win 5 SBD! Writing Contest - Kind of random when it comes out but don't worry. You will have two weeks to complete your work of art from the given prompt. Have fun!
@vdux Haiku - These are coming out every couple days or so. If you stuggle with rhymes, no worries. Haikus don't have to rhyme. All you need to make a haiku is five syllable on the first, seven syllables in the second line, and again back to five syllable for the last line. So easy it makes me think I'm being super product. LOL

Ongoing Stories	Numbered in Order of Story's Progression
Detective Story	#1 Trolley #2 Flea #3 Awakening
Suspense/Horror	#1 Late #2 Banana #3 Paper #4 Tree #5 5 #6 Home Alone #7 Doctor’s Office
The Stall	#1 Medium #2 The Stall #3 The Stall #4 Mice #5 Detective #6 Homeless #7 Eyebrows #8 40 Percent Off #9 One Year #10 The Stall
Church	#1 Church #2 Ornate #3 Chips #4 State
Butterfly	1. Old Maid 2. Pitiful 3. Headache 4. coffee 5. Three Grapes 6. Helicopter 7.Helpless 8. Overslept 9. Smooth as Silk

Poems
#52 Caterpillar	#85 Wildflower	Hardboiled Minds

We-writes (collaborations with community members)
Monster	Eagle Scout 1st Entry: 2nd Entry: 3rd Entry	Smooth as Silk

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Grief: 5 Minute Freewrite: Tuesday - Prompt: grief